"It was my duty to stay awake
and sing if I could keep my mind on singing,
not extinction, as blurred green summer, lifted
to its apex, succumbed to gravity and fell
to autumn, Ilium, and ashes. In joy
we are our own uncomprehending mourners,
and more than joy I longed for understanding
and more than understanding I longed for joy."

Andrew Hudgins, from “Blur” (via proustitute)

"At the heart of the emptiness there is born in me a sudden understanding."

Fabienne Verdier (via awritersruminations)

poisonpassion80:

Understanding (transcript) by Sumayyah (click HEREHEREHERE to support her!)

I understand, man

That this world be damned, eff the police obsession

Led to your ill-stated, ill-begotten confession

And locked you down in the system

Forever and all eternity

But do you realize you missed the opportunity

To redeem yourself in the eyes of those

Who seek to crucify me?

Rather than protect me

You linked arms with the enemy

Used the destruction of my innocence

As fodder for the canon of your smooth talking

Politricks

Yeah, I understand, man

As I’m the one that bathed you birthed you

And raised you

I nursed you at my breast

When you needed me I was a witness

To the evils that sought to engulf you

In the flames

Yet I’m the tool of your emasculation

I gave you life

And you give me public humiliation

Oh, such hypocrisy!

To accuse me of doing

Ungodly things

While you fall to your knees

Worshiping the green as King

Building an altar of flesh to sacrifice

Good sense and throwing away dreams

Yeah, man, I understand what you mean

Lost in the prison of your mind

Hidden behind

The bars of deception and naivety

Unable to focus on reality

Yet you question me

And my commitment to the long haul

This weakness you detest is present in your failure

To achieve absolute success

Your vision wavers due to

Misguided misconceptions

Sinking to a level of using sex and fear as your

Only weapons

Your betrayal brought me to my knees

With tears of pain

I pleaded with you

But my cries were all in vain

You turned your back on the one who had your corner

Forgot my face

Treated me as a foreigner

One who was unknown to your intimacies

You walked away as the air between us

Cooled

By several degrees

I understand, man

Your authority felt threatened

Your manhood was endangered

You lashed out badly angered

I was just in the way

Not so innocent bystander casualty

In cahoots with the Devil

Plotting against you gleefully

Yeah, that’s me

You almost convinced me

I’m not what I appear to be

I’m your mother your sister

Every woman you ever loved

Every woman you ever hurt

Every woman you will desert

Fleeing from the fear

That the hour draws near

That the Angel of Judgment will rest upon your shoulder

And your neck will rest in the cold grip of Death

And away will fly your carefully laid plan

Yeah, man

I understand

(Source: sumayyahsaidso.com, via poemsofthedead-deactivated20120)